The Dating culture today in general, sucks

Ok. So I'm back to dating again... ugh... I don't know why I do this to myself. Before I got married, Dating was stressful and now there's a whole new culture out there. The "hook-up" culture which goes against all my natural instincts in dating and dating goals. I feel like an empath in a sea of narcissists.

I'm a full time mom of 2 girls and have limited "me" time. This makes the already difficult challenges of dating, more difficult. I have seen the conveniences of technology turn our already impatient culture into a culture of instant gratification. "Give me what I want now or I walk. Once I get what I want I'm going to walk anyway". Doesn't anyone take the time to get to know one another anymore?
And yeah while texting is convenient we've gotten into a rut of text only.

There's too many rules for what's "acceptable"... do this, not this and to tell you the truth a lot of it is not me. I HATE games. I'm not a player so I'm not here to play games. I suck at mind games because I hate them and it just isn't me. Wait this long to text someone back, play hard to get, etc. Why is it desperate of me to text back when I get the message? Or else I'll forget and that's just rude. Maybe I want to answer.  Especially if I like a dude. Whatever.

Then there's the flirt. Texting can cause meaning to be lost. Are they going to get the context. Did that go to far. I mean I have a dirty mind and a twisted sense of humor. I'm always stressing about what message I'm sending The stress. Then there's the dating advice. So generalized yet specific. Not everyone is the same.

I'm just going to be myself and hope for the best. That's all I can do.

Here's a humorously accurate video about dating today.

https://youtu.be/tTT_hOUXMTo

I really need to get it together

I have been putting it off and off but really want to use this to chronicle. life stuff. I know its egotistical to think someone wants to read about my life shit in my minuscule web-corner of the inter-webs but maybe someone can relate. Maybe I'm not a mutant. I'm odd yes and maybe there is a nitch out there i can fit into and relate. Maybe. 

So I'm going to be posting my weight loss efforts, my social life musings (or lack thereof) and adventures in keeping my little humans alive and anything else. I love humorous stuff so I'll bring the funny. I'm funny, I swear!!

I'll start with a summary of whats been happening since I last posted.  Let's see Kennedie My youngest was 4 months old.. Fast forward.. I'm divorced since April (Long story for another time), Sold my house in Hampstead and moved back home. I moved back in with my parents for about a year and a half. We, my girls and I, moved into a nice neighborhood in a single family home. My girls are now 6 & 4 and the oldest is a girly girl drama queen. My youngest is a tomboy smart ass rebel. 

I lost my brother in Nov. 2014 to PTSD. I miss him greatly. I lost my uncle to cancer and he fought bravely for 8 years. He was so young and a friend to everyone. 

So it has been a busy 2 - 3 years. But I've definitely have come out stronger. I was one of the hardest time of my lives but I had my girls and they kept me going. They are the reason for everything. Also had an amazing family and friends who stuck by me. 

I'm a lucky blessed single mom of two.

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